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Anger and regret

I was an angry little kid. From the ages of about 4.9, I would have inexplicable fits of rage.

I remember destroying my room. Breaking favorite toys and then crying with regret.

We had, for a short time, an orange tree in the back yard. 

There was a portion of the deck that curved and the tree was in the grass directly in front of the curvature. 

It only bore fruit once and, in a fit of rage, I tore off all three oranges and threw them into the words. 

Not long after, the tree died and my dad dug it up.

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